so.many.dreams

i barely remember my dreams anymore, just fragments. i haven’t been sleeping, two hours then i wake up, two hours then i wake up, two hours then i wake up, it’s mildly frusrating. i know why and i can’t stop it, i’m waiting for you and i wake up periodicly to check if you’ve remembered i’m stilll here….

i was sat on the sofa with two friends, i don’t remember who, i don’t remember if they even exist, and we were in my house, my family home, but on my grandparent’s sofa’s, and we were on some kind of school trip, my teacher and her husband were there, the teacher has massive curly red hair, her husband had dark hair was balding. my teacher and two friends left the room to go to the kitchen along the hall. the husband came and sat next to me, really close to me and was talking to me, but it was making me feel uncomfortable, he was too close. he touched my arm, i asked him not to, i told him i didn’t like being touched, he touched my leg, i asked him to stop, he got closer, he was telling me not to get worked up, he kept getting closer and saying that he was sposed to be looking after me and touching me, it got too much, i told him i was going to tell his wife, i got up to go to the kitchen, he followed me and grabbed my arm. he wouldn’t let me go, i told him i’d scream, he covered my mouth and pushed me against the front door opposite the kitchen, he started strangling me, the door to the kitchen is behind him, i can see it, i know everyone is feet away but i can’t scream, he’s strangling me, i’m trying to fight back but he’s restraining me, i’m desperate, his grip around my neck gets tighter, he’s strangling me to death….

…..and then i wake up